when it rains
The soft grey sky
Drifts to the ground
Brown rivulets
Trickle away
Trickle away
Washing sadness down
Weather vanes
Weep and turn
Weep and turn
Forgetting in the damp and grey
That by and by
The sun will shine
Sun will shine
By and by
The sun will shine.
Jeni Carino
Breakaway
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)
Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway
dailies
Friday, February 23, 2007
-9:47 PM
i knew it!i've been so down lately because i had to deal with the threat of getting kicked out of cba.. yeah.. i did have problems in adjusting to my oh-so-fabulous college life.. i flunked math100.. yeah i had to take it again last summer.. and then i also failed my first accounting class.. 99.1... this one really broke my heart.. i didn't know what to do.. i was at that point where i really wanted to let it all go.. i begged my parents to ship me to another country.. even if i had to work while studying.. i just wanna get away from evrybody.. yes everybody... when i say everybody.. i really meant everybody.. call me stubborn.. but no comforting word would mend this broken heart.. i'm damaged.. but the thing is.. we are not in the financial situation to be flyong off abroad.. so i had to slug it out here.. which i did.. a lot of tears were shed.. and now i'm halfway done.. just a little more.. i'm tired of trying so hard that on some days i just stop.. i hate those days when i cease functioning for hours at a time.. i cry it all out at night.. hot tears.. i feel like they were tears of anger that's why they're warm.. i wanted to prove to everyone that i'm not a loser.. i'm still jeni.. who dreams of becoming a brilliant woman someday.. capable of standing with her own two feet.. who wishes to be called multi-talented.. doing something everyday towards those goals.. i, too, am wondering what God has planned for me.. i feel like sin is overpowering my ways.. and of course.. it's not helping in any way.. i would love to get both feet planted firmly on the ground... get my act together.. and ask for guidance.. i pray.. that i could breakaway..
[as for my status in accounting.. i'm really aiming for a 1flat.. i know now that my problem is not in my abilities but in my priorities and my self esteem.. for the longest time.. i've been aiming for things i am sure i could reach or achieve.. it's like taking two steps forward and three steps back.. it's time to push it to another level.. screw stepping back!]
